It’s been another few months since I posted on my blog. Just goes to show you how consistent I am about writing journals in general. Not very good, especially since my life has gotten much busier with the real world. Work is completely different from school, in case you didn’t know. Seems like some days are a little longer than most or some days just don’t seem to have enough hours. Still I’m adjusting… slowly.

My number one resolution for this year was to exercise patience with people and it HAS been a struggle. It seems that the more I try to love unconditionally, even the closest person in my life ends up being an obstruction to reaching my goal. To describe it as merely hard is an understatement. From day one, my patience has been tested and tried and I will be honest and say that, wow it is still hard. Getting more difficult by the moment. I sometimes forget about my goal to be more patient and loving despite the provoking, the misunderstanding… But I remember someone who went through all this and still ended up being the epitome of LOVE.

A prince closest to his Father, a son most beloved by all in his presence and most precious to his Father, ended up coming to this world to show the greatest gift known to man. Love. His love, it says the Book that talks greatly about him, is patient. Even when the people he came to love mocked him thoroughly… He still showed his patient love to them. Even when they accused him and made him bear their inquities on his pure being, made him be cast as the worst of the worst… He still loved them. He was misunderstood, accused and provoked more than any of us could imagine. And yet, he still loved them. He still loves us. Even when he took the blame for their mistakes, our mistakes, He still loved us. It’s amazing to me, the patient love of Christ. Yes, I am speaking of the Prince of Peace and the Lord of Lords. He became a savior to those who didn’t even realize who he was or know his purpose for coming to the earth in the first place.

I am humbled by it all, completely and thoroughly penitent about my own complaints of how hard it is to love someone who cannot help to provoke the impatience in me. I am repentant of my own idiosyncracies of what I think unconditional love is. Maybe I am rambling a little, words that flow nonsensically from my fingertips and onto this blog but my heart is completely contrite and atoning. Thank you Jesus for loving me unconditionally. For taking my blame and saving me.

As for the “provokers” in my life, I’ve not lost the fight yet. I choose to LOVE today. Forgive my impatience.