Aigoo, aigoo, aigoo. I clutch the side of my head and shake it vigorously. Why do people act like this? I wonder to myself why people get other people involved in their indecisiveness and then in the middle, say “Ooops, just kidding! Mah bad…” It frankly makes me wonder what goes through their head. I doubt they purposely inflict mental trouble to those preyed by their nonchalance but then again I could be wrong.

Today, I was feeling entirely too nostalgic and wishing for the past, wanting to do things differently in my life. I wished for a moment to not listen to certain people, not be vulnerable in a circumstance and end up being used as a doormat. I wished I had said no to some people and said yes to some. I wished I had seized a certain opportunity and ignored another that I’d jumped at the hat for. But then, after all was said and done, I know that although I cannot change back the hands of time, I still owe myself the future. As my parents would say, learn from experience and change the way you respond to whatever comes at you in the road ahead.

Just wish that I could hold up a hand to those indecisive kiddos that made me slightly annoyed today.

Ah on a lighter note, today I finally found my Ipod. It’d been missing for several days and I was ready to jump some little kids that came to my house with “sticky” fingers, if you catch my drift. Thank JESUS alone that I prayed first before accusing the innocent. It was in the most unlikely place, under the springs of a loveseat surrounded by misplaced pencils, an eraser and a nail clipper. Wow. Talk about almost jumping the gun and getting someone else hurt. Eesh. God saved me and those kids today. I might have done some serious, irreversible damage.

In my dreams, or rather nightmare today, I thought about something that will transpire last week and was crippled with fear just lying in my bed. I couldn’t sleep for the next hour but I thank GOD for a wonderful gift called prayer. It says in the WORD that we should seek the LORD while HE may be found… To pray without ceasing. To ask the LORD who is our refuge, our fortress, our GOD in whom we trust. I was so worried about the situation and as usual, without fail, the enemy started to pile up more sources of fear into my mind. It was terrible–probably even worse than the nightmare. But I thank GOD for his faithfulness that never fails. After I lifted up the situation to the LORD, his faithfulness shone through like the morning sun. I’m believing GOD for a miracle.

Yes for happy endings. Hope everyone’s day goes wonderfully.