Four things to learn in life: To think clearly without hurry or confusion To love everybody sincerely; To act in everything with the highest motives; To trust God unhesitatingly. – Helen Keller

I just found this quote and was completely enlightened by its simple but resounding words of wisdom. For one, the last part where it says to “trust God unhesitantingly.” First, to really understand this little phrase, one needs to understand what hesitance really is. According to Webster’s dictionary, hesitance simply means acting with uncertainty or hesitance or lack of confidence…

In other words, to take that word in the opposite form, to trust God hesitantly is a paradox. How can you fully trust if without confidence? Then there is no trust at all. In life, I’ve found out that although I say I fully trust God, I realize that it’s merely just talk. Of course I do believe that my God can supply all my needs according to his riches in Christ Jesus… but why is it difficult to trust him when I’m facing a problem or when I simply feel inadequate?

For example, this whole semester has been a trying one for me. School, life. At least it’s not much about relationships since I’ve decided who are the important people in my life but school especially. Classes that are not to be so hard are becoming a problem for me. I feel inadequate before, during and after an exam. I find myself completely stressed, even when I say these words of, ‘Do not be anxious about anything but in everything, by prayer and petition and with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God that trancends all understanding will be in your hearts and mind in Christ Jesus…’

So why am I completely stressed? Because I don’t fully trust God without hesitance. It’s a shame to let things like school and life to get in the way of what God might have for us. If trusting God with the little things is challenging, how much harder it’ll be when the big things come at us without remorse.

So, I’ve decided from today on that I am going to do what Helen Keller said–a woman who faced such trials but chose to trust her God unhesitantly.

Well, tchau for now.