Wow, I never thought I’d be the one to go berserk on Friday. You know that famous phrase “Thank GOD it’s Friday…” Well, that’s what I’m saying constantly.

This week started out as a complete nightmare for me. First off, my internet was turned off on Sunday so two days straight, I couldn’t use my internet. Secondly, my P.Chem test was just…wow…ridiculously hard. I almost cried as I left the exam hall that day.

Basically, all that made my week miserable were exams and I just had the last one for the week a few minutes ago. Lord, thank you. It’s amazing how we stress out for days, weeks for a single exam that only takes 50 to one hour to complete. How unjust is that? And that 50 mins will determine whether you pass the test or not.

So, for my weekend I plan on… Studying and writing. My creativity was M.I.A. this week and just a simple editing took me more than five hours to brainstorm when it normally takes me an hour or less. I just hope I can finish all the projects I set up for myself and still study for my exams next week.

Boy, I will be glad when I turn in my last paper in life. And that won’t be until I finish pharmacy school and get my degree. Which means, I have a long way to go. How exciting.

So as you can tell from my title, I just finished taking my second P.Chem test and feel like giving up on this Chemistry degree. I cannot stand that class and I think it hates me as well. Tell me why I went to this examination room thinking I’d do “decently” on the test but came out feeling like I had just been flogged, severely…

That’s what P.Chem does to me. I feel inadequate, foolish and just plain retarded in that class. Quantum mechanics, I admit, is my ultimate weakness in Chemistry. I am a pretty visual person but seriously, in this class, orienting xyz-planes in my head is just not my forte.

My personal status on YIM is “Who in their right mind thought P.Chem was comprehensible?” Yes, it is a rhetorical question because the very few that do understand it are too busy solving wavefunctions to answer my question.

I started this day so well. Aced my geography quiz, found out that we could earn extra credit for that class and Biochem was pretty good too–then I entered the dreaded exam hall for P.Chem and everything just collapsed. My boss asked me when I came back to work if I did okay–I just laughed and shook my head.
There’s the really smart girl who works with us and her face lit up when I mentioned Quantum Mechanics…. ¬_¬ Can you imagine? Well, I’m hoping to ask her about this incomprehensible mumbo-jumbo called P.Chem and maybe she’ll be able to help me or I’m doomed.

Anyway, in my sorry attempts to be optimistic, I must say that “all things work together for them that love GOD and are called according to his good and perfect will.” So with that, I say, Chemistry… Bring it on.

Now, let me go study for my biochemistry test and hope for the best.

Until later.

Another week has passed since I last wrote here and I have amazing news. I am caught up with my life! Ha. I guess I really needed that break from Sims.

This week was a little tough in the sense that I had a major P.Chem lab report that was giving me more trouble than it was worth. Deriving some random equations that graduate students are still clueless about and trying to answer questions that I had to use a dictionary or internet resource just to understand what it was asking. Haha, that’s when you know you’re clueless about a subject.

 Well, after that was done yesterday, I struggled with work but fortunately, work was very wonderful. I enjoyed this week despite the grueling days of p.chem, nonstop. But I shall digress from that.

I’m so ready for Spring Break. To finally sit down and take my time doing what I need to do. Of course, I won’t be having too much fun since I have four tests lined up for me when I come back, but at least I get to relax in my home, surrounded by my family. I cannot wait to just sleep for as long as I need to and thank God for a wonderful week to rest. Lord Bless whoever created Spring Break. I am most grateful.

Well, I have biochem to study for, so I shall digress, once again. Until later…

Adieu.

How many days has it been since the last entry? I don’t feel like checking the blog calendar but I’m sure it’s been about a few days. So, since my last entry, I have made some progress with my classes. In work, I read my Biochemistry chapters and actually know what my teacher is talking about when he says α-helix and β-sheets. Phew. You have no idea how lost I was in that class and my first exam reflected it.

My cousin yesterday, finally finished his masters program and we went to see his thesis defense. Talk about major stress. Apparently, me and his girlfriend were more stressed out than he was. I truly don’t understand those things. Obviously, the more questions asked about your thesis, the more sure you are that you’ve passed! I almost ran out the room when the profs kept bashing his work but he evidently liked it. …. I guess. ¬_¬

On another note, I have truly come to appreciate God’s amazing creation. Man. Yesterday, we had International Student Week at our university. It was to show all the different cultures and countries represented on our campus and I was in deep awe at the many different people working together to create a Variety Show. We, as Africa, did not obviously have a common flag and as I stood there in the front with my hands clasped behind my back while the other countries carried their flag, I almost cried. It’s amazing how pride for oneself, for one’s country, hits you. It was then I knew that when I get my pharmacy degree, I knew I would definitely use it to help my nation….

In other words, I am going to be a part of the Medical Missions for Africa when I finish. Also, as we said Hello and Goodbye in our various languages, I almost lost it again. Just to imagine that when the Lord comes someday and we meet in heaven, that’s how it will be. We will all be up there, no segregation, no discrimination: just the whole word joined together to worship one God. I cannot wait.

Well today is Saturday and I have many plans… First, tidy my room. I’m a neat person and am disgusted by the state of my room. Of course my friends think I’m OCD for even calling my room a mess, but I know myself and this is messy.

In fact, let me make a list of what I have plans for today so I can check it off as I go:

1. Read my devotional and catch up with Bible reading
2. Call family
3. Tidy my room
4. Do Physical Chemistry homework (ugh…. hardest subject ever)
5. Read Geography assignment
6. Work on P.Chem lab report
7. Eat!
8. Read Biochem assignment
9. Sleep.

That should do it. Now if only I can check off everything by the end of this day, that would be a miracle.

Serido!